And I have lost all hopes, I was crazy for you , I was so much dependent on you. Everything I did I was willing to ask you that whether I was doing it right or not .
Yes, I was in love with you .
I never express my feelings to people and we should not.
I kept it to myself, I was disturbed and this loneliness led me to depression .
Then I found me , I had lost myself when I was with you .
I was never the same but I could not find myself till now because of our separation.
I expressed my feelings in words and then writing became my passion. I started my own blog.
You don’t have to wait for the right time but stand up and learn from your past .
A lover , who loved his girlfriend so much that he didn’t wanted to listen what were the wrong things .
You were my life, but our love ended .
I started pursuing engineering , came away from home just to realize after a while that this was not my cup of tea .
When I opened books, all equations was going over my head and much to this when I tried hard to study the questions appeared to be as bouncer .
And then finally smoking weed and a bottle of whiskey became my best friends.
But there was a hope in my loved ones that I could be a good engineer .
I tried to explain them that this is not I wanted to do but what to say , they are always right .
I took , but this time they were wrong .
Exploring new places, travelling to new cities , talking to new people and having a cup of tea with those strangers made my day .
How they spent their lives, and their experiences in life , and moreover writing was my passion .
In city of Dehradun you will not find what was in Delhi .
This place is quiet, people are more frank and they do have time to look after their loved ones .
Every village here has some specialty, in 3 out of 10 houses there is a plant of weed which is different from other places in Dehradun .
People are happy in what they have .
It is a small town where you’ll not find clubs , bars and Porsche societies and if they exist they are very few .
I have seen my own friends having passion for machines, computers and I stand nowhere .
But still my loved one have hope that I will be a good engineer .
There is not a single reason doing your work without passion !
I love to write and travel but they say its useless .
I am going mad .
I wish she was here , she understood me when no one did .
She had confidence in me because she had confidence in herself more .
Our love story ended , And I cried when she died .
clap and feel bad at the same moment ! a grt post which we remember we met a person like you .you explored things well dude and keep this task continue till you not meet with success .
ReplyDeleteThank you Prateek.
ReplyDeleteYes I will write and you people will help me in achieving success and your love will keep me going to write all good things :)